The Disquiet of the Soul

[It’s impossible to be a writer on the web these days without an awareness of FaceBook.  Sometimes when I’m stumped, or simply procrastinating, I pop over there and read what others have written about their lives or an article or video they’ve seen.  When you arrive at the top of your FaceBook Page, there’s this single line blank space that asks, “What’s on your mind?” 
What's on your mind?
Normally I ignore it and post whatever I feel like posting rather than responding to this contrived prompt.  Today, I didn’t.  Here’s what followed.]

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What’s on my mind?

Today it’s the crazy angst I feel when I cannot feed my soul’s calling.  It’s the disquiet that comes from allowing myself to get caught up in the daily grind of making a living.  It’s the restlessness from the resulting 4 dozen day job details that consume my attention, energy, and motion of the clock.  It’s the sadness when I realize I have forgotten to sit down and be present with the ones who give my life deep meaning and love.

I have a good life, a rich life, an “enough” life.  Some days I feel blessed, on others, just profoundly lucky.  There are so many on our crowded planet who have far more challenges than I.

I feel I should not complain.

Still, my soul howls to spend more of its incarnation doing what it aches to do.  What it came to do.  To do more than pay the bills.  To take it’s unique experiences, skills and gifts to make the world a slightly better, lighter place.  To be in deep, attentive communion and connection with those that matter.

That’s what’s on my mind today…

 

 

3 thoughts on “The Disquiet of the Soul

    • Thanks for the kind words, Suzi. My greatest hope is being able to dial down the work for bread and butter, while dialing up the food for the soul.

  1. Wow Mick that is a great way to use that question. I rarely ever use it. I guess there’s this big part of me who doesn’t want to put my thoughts on there and be judged. I only really like to tell my husband in real life what is on my mind. But you made it long enough so that your friends, and “friends” and family could really understand and there was no way to be judged. I guess I have many “friends” on my account because I have my real friends and family on my maiden name account. That’s where I usually interact with the ones I trust not to judge me. But since my husband is on FaceBook too, on both accounts I will write some things there with him being tagged so that I am sure that he is there to “protect” me from any judgment. I have had bad experiences on another social media site years ago and promised myself that the way that I use FaceBook will be much different. Maybe I’ll take a chance and share a real feeling there. Besides sharing recipes, notes of what we did that day, and SHARE news articles and graphics. Thank you!

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